Having “followed” you for quite some time now, and the sufferings you and your family have endured-your words are understandable/relatable /and beautifully honest. In this body of Christ I know our prayers and sufferings “hold you up” just as your prayers and sufferings help ours. Our Lord and Blessed Mother are the best distributor of graces! 🤗 When I reached the point of anger, bitterness, (beyond even sadness)and dryness of spirit…I still knew God was there (even if there were no consolations) meeting me where I was and taking that offering as the best I could do in that moment. I continued to talk to Him as bluntly as a friend sitting in front of me and telling Him. “I’m mad at you. I’m annoyed, I’m trying to do it all “right”, and what’s the point? I love you, but I’m really ticked at you right now.” Sounds silly, but I feel like our Lord is happy to have me visit with Him, and open my heart to Him-even if it isn’t beautifully scripted words.
Thank you for sharing these thoughts. I opened the email about this letter this morning in what feels like perfect timing.
I also have never been a resilient person. I am so, so tired from these trials. And I am angry at God because so many prayers are going unanswered. But He continues to provide for us and we are never without and for that I am thankful. God bless you and your family, Kristine. <3
I once heard from a priest that anger towards God is better than not feeling anything about Him at all! Hang in there, His provisions will always sustain you no matter how it feels. God bless you too <3
How old are you? Look forward and pray for a wonderful life. Poor Me. Poor Me, that’s all I’ve read. Well there is someone who is going through more horrible times than you. They might be much younger, pray for them. Live one day at a time. Thank God for everyday he gives you, with whatever comes to you, good or bad. Deal with it!
Beautiful as always. Ugh. The trials, the anger, the sadness, the bitterness. Wow…if you’re human, you’re going to suffer. So, we can suffer with Him, or we can suffer without Him. Sometimes we bring the suffering upon ourselves and sometimes they are laid right at our feet. And yep, it can be overwhelming! I joke with God A LOT!! I say, “Huh, You obviously think I’m stronger than I think I am, soooo…can’t do this without you…shower the grace and strength God…shower the strength and grace.” And…sometimes I feel it, and sometimes I don’t. And, then I cry in the shower and keep going. And, it’s exhausting, but…He is with me, I know this, so to honor and love Him, I keep going. And, I know others are suffering for Him as well, and we are all connected in this crazy, beautiful life!
Having “followed” you for quite some time now, and the sufferings you and your family have endured-your words are understandable/relatable /and beautifully honest. In this body of Christ I know our prayers and sufferings “hold you up” just as your prayers and sufferings help ours. Our Lord and Blessed Mother are the best distributor of graces! 🤗 When I reached the point of anger, bitterness, (beyond even sadness)and dryness of spirit…I still knew God was there (even if there were no consolations) meeting me where I was and taking that offering as the best I could do in that moment. I continued to talk to Him as bluntly as a friend sitting in front of me and telling Him. “I’m mad at you. I’m annoyed, I’m trying to do it all “right”, and what’s the point? I love you, but I’m really ticked at you right now.” Sounds silly, but I feel like our Lord is happy to have me visit with Him, and open my heart to Him-even if it isn’t beautifully scripted words.
I love all of that, especially in talking to God so real. I can relate to those conversations! Thank you so much for sharing.
Thank you for sharing these thoughts. I opened the email about this letter this morning in what feels like perfect timing.
I also have never been a resilient person. I am so, so tired from these trials. And I am angry at God because so many prayers are going unanswered. But He continues to provide for us and we are never without and for that I am thankful. God bless you and your family, Kristine. <3
I once heard from a priest that anger towards God is better than not feeling anything about Him at all! Hang in there, His provisions will always sustain you no matter how it feels. God bless you too <3
“It is a painful process that many abandon along the way, and I can see why.” 100 percent.
This was exactly what I needed to hear. Thank you 🙏
How old are you? Look forward and pray for a wonderful life. Poor Me. Poor Me, that’s all I’ve read. Well there is someone who is going through more horrible times than you. They might be much younger, pray for them. Live one day at a time. Thank God for everyday he gives you, with whatever comes to you, good or bad. Deal with it!
Beautiful as always. Ugh. The trials, the anger, the sadness, the bitterness. Wow…if you’re human, you’re going to suffer. So, we can suffer with Him, or we can suffer without Him. Sometimes we bring the suffering upon ourselves and sometimes they are laid right at our feet. And yep, it can be overwhelming! I joke with God A LOT!! I say, “Huh, You obviously think I’m stronger than I think I am, soooo…can’t do this without you…shower the grace and strength God…shower the strength and grace.” And…sometimes I feel it, and sometimes I don’t. And, then I cry in the shower and keep going. And, it’s exhausting, but…He is with me, I know this, so to honor and love Him, I keep going. And, I know others are suffering for Him as well, and we are all connected in this crazy, beautiful life!
Have you heard of 'resilience fatigue'?
Perhaps you've got it.
The idea is that it is not pain that creates resilience, but support.
Thanks for your generous insights, as always.
I have not heard of that, but just looked it up and it totally makes sense. Thank you for sharing!